There are days when I get "cleaning the home" attack. Last Sunday, I saw Umar cleaning the doors and I thought I need to kill some cockroaches too. It was a pending task so I just started off. Then I thought I should spray some mortein in my closet too to kill any keera makoras.
And it took me so long. I emptied my entire closet and ended up doing so much work and killing very few makoras. The good part was I took out all the stuff that was piled up and which I'd hardly wear again. Ammi says I'm the only one in our family who has this habit. As soon as I'll get my new stock of clothes I take out everything that I won't be wearing. She is happy I do that but having said that, she always makes sure to go through the dupattas and shoes I give away - she keeps a lot of those things herself ... I really don't know why.
That's one of the things where she and I are poles apart. I can't keep stuff just like that for no reason when I know I'd not use it. Better give it to someone who might find it more useful rather than occuping space as a decoration in my closet. I can't keep them. I get irritated.
Ammi, on the other hand stores everything forever. She is all okay with giving money and food but other stuff is a big No. In our old house, I think we had 2-3 stores where she kept all of such stuff. When we moved from our P.E.C.H.S house to the Bath Island house we didn't really realize the storage. But when we moved to Defence a few years ago we got to know there is so much it is damn scary. The men who transferred our boxes said they have never seen so much stuff ever ever ever :P And till this day she hasn't opened most of her boxes. One day I found one of her boxes, which contained only cut outs of a thousand year old clothes. It seemed like trash :P but can't do anything ... it's her box. Not my place to say nothing more. It is funny though. It was seriously funny. Anyway, so I emptied the entire closet and then organized it all again. It's been a week and it looks pretty neat.
I long for Nadzy to talk to me but madam has little time for me now. She loves her time on the net. She loves her virtual life quite a bit. At times I feel we talk more on the net than face to face. I am not complaining, have kind of gotten used to it. But it's just that while she was playing I thought this week I should definitely get out all the rubbish from my heavy desk. I was fasting too today. And like I said I am so not enjoying this Ramzan. I seriously don't have the energy and strength to go on throughout the day without water and food. So, I got damn tired.
But honestly speaking after cleaning the mess the end feeling is a bliss :p Today I was so happy to have a look at all the old albums. Just the feeling of holding the albums in the hands and going through those pics was brilliant unlike the digital photos we have now. I have a zillion folders - 2005, 2006, mba, bba, mindshare, interflow, thailand trip, north trip, cat 1, cat 303 blah blah blah and I don't go through all of them once they are transferred. A lot of them go unnoticed. But these albums were different. I loved the childhood pic albums with all of us together...very simple and innocent. What a different era it was.
There are a few benchmarked pics that are missed and discussed whenever all of us meet. One of them is when Babur was leaving back for US after papa's death and he and I were holding hands and we looked so round, worried and healthy both eating some chalia. It was an amazing pic. I love the boating pics as well. Then the very old trip to Quetta with pics in Quaid-e-Azam's Ziarat home are so nice. I don't normally like the St. Michael's pics much. I don't really have that big a collection of that time as it is. I hardly miss it perhaps. But I really cherished the times at Lyceum. And though I lost most of my pics collection (the digital pics) I do have my own collection. Some brilliant pics...really took me back in time. And then the cat albums were too cute. I honestly think (seriously not being biased) Minnie was the cutest kitten perhaps. I really missed Winnie...wished he hadn't disappeared like that. He was really special being our first cat.
And then I saw my little blue box in which I have put so many small cherishable memories. I tried showing those to Nadzy...she didn't really look back. I still kept on saying that see this is this and this is this ... she did respond on 2 things perhaps. I started maintaining this box since 17 years now. Have all sorts of memories in it. A tooth, key chain Babur sent, Winnie's black soft fur (I always tell Nadira, if we will have the money we will use it to clone Winnie), mini websters, tiny model cars, Pakistan's 50th independence day badges, Nadzy's quotes, Rabiah's handmade tissue paper card, MFest Band, the PC token on which Sanam had signed on her birthday and a lot more...It's my loveliest posession. My preciouss...
I have stopped sharing a lot of things. Don't talk about everything with everyone. Don't trust too many people. Write only what I feel like writing down. I do however hope to share my lil precious blue box with my dear ones someday...if they'd be interested.
