For a long time, I used to think as to who will attend my funeral. But then it occurred to me that when I’m gone, what does it matter. However, there is one thing that still bothers me. Who will pray for me? I think Papa was lucky, but I’m not, as I don’t have kids.
I have often thought about coffin also. You know when we were kids…we had this huge bed, which had a huge trunk attached to it. And my siblings used to lock someone in the trunk for a minute & that person has to shout for help. I was locked in that trunk twice & it scared the shit out of me. I was 7 at that time, but even today the idea of suffocation could get me suffocated. I don’t know whether to call it a bad game, as kids are like this. At least we weren’t killing kittens on the road like that cruel kid.
This year I lost most of my stray pals & 2 of my favourite cats (Fluffy & Tokyo) besides that kitten who was being killed. Anyhow, it’s also not that easy to domesticate stray cats. My cats have issues with strays. Although most of my cats are being neutered & spayed, but there are 2, 3 amongst them who are still thugs & they don’t stand strays.
Actually when I think about my cats, I get more scared. It seems I can’t afford to die & leave them behind. What would happen to them? Humans are treated so badly. And you all know people have problems with my cats. Just come to think of it, I can’t adopt humans instead of cats. That is ridiculous. And I never seem to understand why do humans expect so much of me? It’s so fucking irritating. Do I even seem to be the kind of person?
They say death is an educational experience & what about life? Is that something that ought to be taken for granted? I did mention in one of my write-ups that we live & learn, & then we die & forget it. I have never been afraid of death & I even survived it few years ago. I think about death, but at the same time, I think about life also. And yeah life always seems far more sexier to me except that the sexy part is missing.
And how can I forget Z who thinks I pick fights with everyone even when I talk…Well Z, this is for you:
“If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you.”
And I do mean it Z :P
