20. Did you ever binge/purge?

NEVER. I never have and I never will. For a few reasons:

  1. I have a phobia of throwing up. I hate the way it feels, and I hate the way it tastes, and I am just so scared of it and the though of it, that I try to keep it down as much as possible.
  2. I like food too much to get rid of it.
  3. My mom told me a story about how she had a friend at work when we lived in Texas who did that—to the point that she was diagnosed with bulemia. She told me how the woman’s breath always smelled awful, her teeth were rotten, and her body looked awful. She was literally a bag of bones. That put me off eating disorders for life.
  4. I like my body enough that I would never be able to ruin it.
  5. I have a very small gag reflex, and I can’t make myself throw up. (I tried it once when I was five just for shits n gigs.)
  6. I would not be able to hide it, since I cry when I throw up.