Mistakes remind me of some mistakes that weren’t worth the trouble at all, & yet I paid the price. When I look back, there’s one thing that I would very much like to erase from my life – it’s my 1st love. I was in love with a shadow. I’m not even sure if it was love, I was just 13 +. That bastard didn’t like me either & thank God for that. He even told my brother & may be that’s why I still remember that piece of shit. Both my parents were quite mad at me for bothering a guy. Papa gave me this huge lecture & somehow I drifted away from him. I can never say that my parents are my friends or my heroes, but they made me a brat & gave me something that I don’t see in everyone.
And when you drift away from your parents for a lousy reason & that very parent dies, you feel bad. Papa passed away when I was just 17; we couldn’t become friends. I was too young at that time. When he used to talk to me, I didn’t bother to reply back. We had dinner together on 31st May’92 after he came back from one made up party. I didn’t go to that stupid party as I had my exams. I didn’t talk to him while eating & he died after 2 hours.
Today I was just thinking that if I could go back in my past…that is one thing I’d like to get rid of. But how should I do that? They haven’t invented a time machine as yet.
