Wat

I’m so shocked I don’t even know what to say. Firstly, my parents thought it would be good to “teach me a lesson” and take away my computer rights. I think it’s because they don’t know how to solve a problem normally, it’s just better to punish and hope they come to the conclusion themselves. I didn’t even do anything wrong.. I never do. Well theyre insane so i’m not bothered. However I’m being hassled to move out to the point where they aren’t even speaking to me anymore. If they have anything to say it’s not nice at all and terribly awkward, so I’ve just being hibernating in my room for the past 2 weeks. I’m eighteen years old and being treated like this. This can’t be normal.
I also seem to be so fucking anemic that I’m losing feeling in my limbs again. I feel so dizzy constantly and can’t even concentrate or stay awake for too long. My muscles get painfully tense and strained when I stand for a few minutes. Argh, it’s like glandular fever come up all over again. If I get this more than once I will shoot myself in the face. I would go to the doctors except I have no money, my mum isn’t willing to pay for anything let alone buy me a damn steak or something. Because I haven’t been able to pay my rent this week because I had to pay for my friends meds. She tells me I’m “not even sick at all” infact. There is something seriously wrong with my family lol.
I can’t even feel my fingers as I type this and I can’t stop eating because I feel as though I’m going to pass out constantly. No matter how much water I drink its never enough. I slept for 15 hours yesterday. Whats happening to me.. Can’t wait till I get paid. I don’t even know when I will be allowed a desktop back, I will probably have to wait out for my ex to finish building my pc. God damn I hope it’s soon. Being sick with nothing to do in this house except drive myself crazy is torturous. I miss downloading shows and docs so much! fuck. I guess I’m stuck with reading and drawing.