It's simple I am kinda tired of stuff. I want some change now. Life seems monotonous and stagnant. Of course there are these moments of happiness and momentary pleasure time and again, which I cherish truly but it's that sort of change that aint happening.
Please do not mention the word "Marriage" now. It is not the sort of change I mean. Yes, but I'd be happy if that too would happen :) No denying that. Par like I keep telling everyone...the good susheel sort of guys do not exist. I am ok with the not so ideal type also...but for them I am THE BEST FRIEND.
This is not the issue actually. I am not so happy with stuff that is just not friggin happening. The pending things that keep on delaying no matter how hard we try to finish them. The peace has all gone away. The bomb blasts every now and then just makes the city so un safe. It's weird how we live. People keep dying around us, bull shit is happening, media blows it all up, politicians never stop barking, people keep on becoming the fools and nothing really changes. It is suffocating. But we still gotta live. Reminds me of that dialogue that John Abraham said in Paap "Marnay kay dar se kia insaan jeena chor de ?"
Well, nobody stops living. Only those who actually go through the shit can feel the pain. And no matter how hard we try there is not much that we can do.
A friend of mine is sad because her uncle passed away. I know she is quite sad and hurt though she wouldn't say a lot. Like I said, not much that one can do even if we want to. I wish everyone there recovers and uncle may rest in peace.
I was also a bit irritated till last 2 weeks to see how idle minds were spreading stories and discussing shit. But, then that's all they can do. And perhaps that is what they are best at doing. So, I decided not to waste any more time on even talking to them. The company that sucks should stay in the bin.
These days I am more motivated to do something about animal shelters and animals in general. These countries I thought who did so much for animals, even they are so messed up. There is no proper way of doing stuff. Talking about animals, this old cat of ours whom we adopted from our old neighbor while shifting, he keeps spraying till this day.
I tried working out things with this very old special acquaintance. He wouldn't be called a friend I guess. I was amazed that how things can never be normal even if you really try hard to make things perfect as the situation requires. I realized it's better to let go off working on this also though my attachment over the years always makes me think let's make it all good. Somethings are beyond my understanding. It aint really my thing perhaps.
There's still a whole lot more I wanted to write. Little things. They are all about the change I mentioned before. I don't want to sound like those actresses who say the same thing about every new movie they do...."Mera Role is Mai Bohat CHANGE hai" :)
This CHANGE factor is so missing I swear. Wish it was as simple as they put it.
